Random Thoughts and Madness

I've spent the past 30 minutes trying to write a cohesive blog post.

It isn't really happening.

So I've decided to just write my random thoughts.

1. The shows have been going well. I've been very happy with them as I hope the cast and crew have been too.

2. I've discovered that I have a "I am the playwright watching her work on stage" stance. I don't move until I notice that my leg has gone numb and so I have to switch my crossed leg position. One arm is crossed over my body, while the other holds my head up...the thumb holding my chin and my fingers jamming themselves into my lips.

3. I've also discovered that my default response is to hate my work. Several times I had moments when I caught myself thinking "this play sucks, I suck, give up now"(as per usual: I'm selfish and so think this only about my writing...never the acting or directing). Usually by the end of the show the feeling has passed. I think I may just have to include this feeling to the stance mentioned above. I have a stance and a mindset.

4. When I get the question, "what are you working on next?" I kind of want to crawl into a ball. Something is coming next. I'm writing. But what will it end up being? I have no idea. I wish I knew. I promise something is coming. I refuse to be a one-hit-wonder (which I am not even sure is an appropriate title since who knows if the play is and/or I am a "hit" or a "wonder"...I'm guessing no). Am I going to apply to MFA programs? I think so, maybe, I'm getting conflicting advice (Seriously...should I get my MFA? I'm taking any and all advice).

5. Theater requires you to be, well, social. Now as a playwright I could very easily hide and not be social, but I tend to not like hiding too much. Then again, I am not very good at the whole social thing. I am exhausted from being social. How do people do this day in and day out? I'm in awe of you social types. I feel like I've been running around like a madwoman.

6. I am thinking my next piece will revolve around the song, Summer Madness by Kool & The Gang. Just FYI.

over and out. (two more performances. hope you can make it!)